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Just arrived home,took a bath and thought I should write something before I do something else.Oh....just remembered "Selamat Hari Raya & Happy Deepavali to all!!!" Selamat Hari Raya to Fadz,Lini,Iman,MGSgang,Zahoor,Yamaha colleagues,office colleagues,etc etc..cannot remember all."Happy Deepavali" to Barathi,Big Brother Ginni,Teacher/GodMom-MrsSivarajah..etc,etc...I cannot remember anything now.

So tired.Wrote an email just now and all my thoughts on camp have already disappeared after that.But,ah,I gotta write that email.Mm.
Camp was..ah,it's not really unexpected anyway.Obviously it was good.This time,the twist is,that,we have Thai participants.And,definitely many ppl watching the whole event.Feels like we're so 'on tv'....reality show.hhaha.

Another Incovar came and gone.Change is about to happen again. :)

As for this camp,I'm glad yet at the same time not really glad.Glad because,yay,get to be facilitator-and it's like my access card to do anything without restriction.Not glad because I know that I could have contributed much much more than what I have done.Quite sorry to the committees for not being a committee..but I don't think I can juggle that much nowadays.

Being a facilitator has its perks.I can be 'in control' whenever I'm assigned to.I can 'hide behind the shadows' whenever I feel comfortable.And,also,I can do the thing I like most-being somewhat a participant,a friend,a buddy,counsellor.Most importantly,I GET TO LISTEN TO THE TALKS!!!yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... selfish me for not taking larger roles of sacrificing all these near and dear to me, for the greater cause-to organize the whole thing,go through all the mess,emotional turmoil,frustration,dissatisfaction,etc, with the committees. ^-^ But,I really needed this.I need a break from organizing and feel the fruits of camp.hehe.

Mm..what do I say about the Thais who came?Mm..there's nothing much to say,actually.They're human,too.Oh yea.I learnt something from them.The respect they have towards...mm..for example,the buddha image,or speakers,or someone 'more in control'...is really admirable.The difference between putting your palms together and saying thank you or whatever with that kind of respect is so much more meaningful than 'doing for the sake of doing' as what we normally do.Ah!found the word "sincerity". That level of sincerity... :) :)

What else? mm .I'm glad I went for camp...and yknow what,it just so happens that I get the public holiday,compulsory leave from work,school term holiday(which means I don't have to teach)and ...when all added together...I GET 4 DAYS FULL CAMP plus 2 days bonus to sleep in & recuperate.WOW.

Recharged myself to go through work cycle again.
I'm reading this blog and think:mm...here I go saying so sorry for not being a committee....but who knows,in actual fact,the committees are thinking GOOD RIDDANCE...UU...UU....insignificant thing!LOL!! hehe.

OHHH...I get to Dana in so many ways.^_^ In between,realized how much I have changed.

Okayy..STOP HERE!! I'm so tired.Need sleep.

posted by Songie @ 7:10 PM