Wednesday, November 28, 2007


I think I found what I'm looking for... :D :D

Zoltan Kodaly - Bartok's good friend. Bartok - my idol. If Bartok went around Hungary with Zoltan Kodaly and deviced a method in teaching music, I'M DEFINITELY IN!!!

Note: Another thing I shall check on = the Suzuki Method.

Okay- My next mission: Finish my research next year, and then ENROL for this!!!!!After so long, I've finally found it!!! WHOOOHHOHHH!!!!!


Friday, November 23, 2007



It's all about the green stuff. Brings the worst out of x.

Can't wait for Feb. Green or not. The grass shall grow, the sun will shine.

Anyway- thoughts;
At times, seeking to grab hold of something. At times, peacefully unaware.
Been reading this book, Ajahn Khao. Thought provoking, inspiring, resonates with the heart. I think HX and ML wld enjoy this book. Mmm- note: to bring this back in Feb.

This is funny!:)

Wife's diary vs Husband's diary


Sunday night - I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.

Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but his mind was far away. I asked him what was wrong - he said, 'Nothing.' I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.

On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, 'I love u, too.'

When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent.

Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep. I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.

My life is a disaster.


Today Liverpool lost again. Niamah.

Thursday, November 08, 2007


Dear Blig.

The journey has,sort of, come to the end. Year 2007, certainly an inspiring year for me. All the hard work,paid off? I'm not sure, but I sure do feel satisfied. (Regardless of the outcome).It feels like a heavy load of worries off my shoulders. And-it feels great!! Really good. :D

Then come, savouring time. Now is it.Time when I ponder,reflect, meekly smiling at my "self imposed" achievements....and also, time to move on.And today, now, it feels as though I am just looking at myself age/grow older after such a long time not noticing the change. I think of the people I know,boy,I'm sure they must have aged and changed heaps as well. My little self imposed achievements aint' that great after all. At the expense of things money can't buy. Like,my health, my family, ppl near and far, joy. Ahhh.... I think less too now. All these seems too repetitive.

Let's shed the old skin and blossom the new! Let's face the morning sun with love and greet it with a BIG smiling face ^-^. The roses smells great, the weather?perfect!The breeze, the calmness, the sense of inner peace. This,too, money can't buy. ANd I'm feeling all of that, all at once. Overwhelming.

This weeekend, it's Kathina day at Wabbie. I shall say my thanks, I pay my respects, and I try my very best to cultivate generosity. I shall bow down low, and I aspire to remind myself of how negligible those self-pursuit goals were. This is the first time I will be witnessing the offering of robes to the monks...and even more exciting, is the fact that, part of it is my contribution.I know, to even acknowledge that it is "my" contribution is, an egoistic statement,but I can't help but feel proud of it. With this,firstly, I wish the monks well, may they continue to be a source of inspiration to all... I wish myself well,as age catches up, may I grow in wisdom & compassion, which I greatly lack. My family and friends, relatives and workmates. I also "dedicate" this especially to Nl, for being such a wonderful person,my pillar of strength and for guiding me, when I am just simply bodoh at times.Nl's discipline, clear mind, has been a driver for me to keep going,when I lack focus.

After so long, I aim to pick up where I left off, my meditation practice. Metta to all, SADHU, SADHU, SADHU!

"Better it is to live one day wise and meditative,than to live a hundred years foolish and uncontrolled"

"Better it is to live one day strenous and resolute,than to live a hundred years sluggish and dissipated"

"Better it is to live one day seeing the rise and fall of things,than to live a hundred years without ever seeing the rise and fall of things"

"Better it is to live one day seeing the Supreme Truth than to live a hundred years without ever seeing the Supreme Truth"

Namo Amitofuo/Amitabha Buddha